The day of my assessment, I was soo nervous I could hardly focus. I was fairly confident of my CLI project and felt prepared to demo my work. However, I feared being tested on concepts learned through out the months. In my mind, I thought I was going to fail to give the correct answers that was being asked of me. This fear made me write every concept I had learned on to my white erase board and try to cement everything to mind, but I felt that this wasn’t enough. Thoughts of failing and getting kicked out of the cohort fogged my mind and made it hard to focus, but I didn’t let this stop me.
During the past two weeks the words, “My Project”, has instilled so much emotional turmoil it was literally like being on a rollercoaster. There were so many moments of, “Yes, I’m killing it!”, to, “OMG! I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m going to fail!”, but I never quit.
Methods, Loops, and Hashes..Oh my! How quickly did the first mile go by. I can’t help but feel a sense of excitement as I feel one step closer to my ultimate goal. However, I also feel a sense of forboding. There is a little voice in the back of my head whispering words of doubt. What if I’m not good enough. What if know one wants to higher me and the career I want is forever out of my reach. I don’t let it get to me. As I continue to pass each lab I feel more and more like I can do this. As long as I give it my very best and keep trying I know I can succeed. I’m ready for the next challenge
I had become complacent. Satisfied with making bare minimum salary and being ok with living from paycheck to paycheck. I was burnt out and was coming to the scary realization when I began looking for a new job that I was underskilled. Many jobs required more skills than I had aquired working 9 years as an Application Analyst and I was being turned down for the jobs I did applied for. I needed a change.